In the past week (and probably the week to come) I have been so conflicted about what i'm going to do next month, next semester, next year, and the next 50 years. I am blessed to have so many options, and I truly am grateful for this, but it's actually terrifying. Every day I have a new idea for my life, a new perspective, and now i have no clue what to do with all of them! let alone just one…
it seems that i can't even begin to get started on one idea, because i'm overwhelmed. Overwhelmed with trying to make a real place for myself here among my new Aussie friends, overwhelmed with school work, overwhelmed with thoughts of love, overwhelmed with being completely broke, and overwhelmed with the reality that the semester is coming to an end here and I feel like i've just finally settled in. Part of me wants to come home and tell everyone about my trip, but a much larger part of me looks around Sydney and Coogee and can't believe it has to leave this place - the place that has brought me such happiness in a time when it was so desperately needed.
But I also have to remind myself that I am Lily Michaels, queen of adapting to change, queen of working things out with humor and grace (Hey i'm allowed to brag, it's almost my birthday here!), able to charm thousands with just a smile… (too far?)
In any event, I venture into the world as a full fledged legally drinking adult, feeling a little alone and scared, and as I tip toe on, I want to push myself out there yelling "GO, DO IT!", so that's what I'm going to do. Done.
Lots and lots of love to everyone out there!
"We'll be coming back for you someday, we'll be coming back for you someday."
